| blah |
[Jun. 20th, 2005|11:20 pm] |
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| | fall out boy | ] |
GUESS WHO IS MUTHAFUCKIN BACK KIDS LOL ME...yeah not much but still im a fucking cool kid...yeah updating takes a lot of thinking but im out of that for the night just thought i would say hi.. |
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| Lets play docter babe on operation day... |
[May. 9th, 2005|10:22 am] |
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| |  awake | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Senses Fail-Buried A Lie | ] |
Whats up..This weekend was very interesting.I had to work Friday which i was tired and i talked my way out of having to work on Saturday.I had lots of fun at prom with Brit.We went and ate at riverside tavern and the food was so horrible it sucked so bad.Then we went to the foundary were the prom was.That place was jammed pack and you could barely move around so it sucked.The cool part it that we had a limo and the driver was soo awesome.Word Alvin lol.After we left the prom we went to TACO BELL yes taco bell because we really didnt even eat at the riverside but it was okay as long as brit was having fun i was satisfied.We went to wal-mart after taco bell.We walked around in there and then on our way coming out alvin was taking pictures so it was fun.Some old fuck was gettin smart with alvin and alvin punked him out it was soo funny.On the way home brit was acting weird i dunno whats wrong with her.I told her she is the only one for me just i need some time by myself right now so thats good for me i guess but she hates me for it i know she does.I dont want to hurt her because i love the kid to death and i know its hurting her.So britany i know your gonna read this so just to let you know that i do love you and will always be here for you.After the limo dropped me off at my house i came in the house and i was invited out to faulks house boat so i went out there.When i got there not that many people were there yet but before coming in someone got pulled over well to come to find out it was smiley(Justin Carden).That was pretty funny.We chilled up on the roof in the hottubs and jumping off the boat into the lake at first then we decided to go downstairs and play halo well a little after that most people went to bed but me noooo i stayed up all night.In the morning we cleaned up our mess then played some more halo and then me and Jacob went outside and started swimming in the freezing cold water might i add. These ducks were getting close to the boat so i was tryin to jump on them which was sooo funny lol.Thats the highlight of my weekend so yeah....bye |
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| Such a simple design |
[May. 5th, 2005|05:05 pm] |
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| | simple design-breaking benny J | ] |
I live a chemical life
I'm on a mission to try
You went insane for a day
I'll have to shove it away
My only option is gone
Smile as they break and they fall
You want a simpler life
You can't erase what was mine
[Pre-Chorus:]
You must be out of your mind!
This was a simple design!
You f**k it up everytime
How could you leave me behind
[Chorus:]
It's alright, it's alright
'cause I know what you want
but you'll just have to wait
If I had it to give
I would give it away
I'm living it up
while I'm falling from grace
There's no way that I'm running away
I'm used to making it worse
Made up of four letter words
You wanna know what it was
Now isolated and gone
You fall apart at the seams
I'll never know what it means
Try not to pull it apart
Your aiming straight from the heart
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So here lately i guess that i've fucked things up but thats what i chose to do was to start being what i wanna do.I dont hate brit in the least bit except for the laughing type.She doesnt wanna talk to me i know it.So prom is this weekend it should be interesting.I am so tired but i might add the breaking benjamin three doors down kicked ass.Silvertide on the other hand...lol you get it well i gotta go get my tux holla back lol |
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| Feel this broken heart...diagnosis heart broken.. |
[May. 1st, 2005|03:16 pm] |
fuck it this weekend has sucked my family is so worried about me and im just over it.Im tryin to make everyone happy but i cant please everyone and then i never get time for myself and its just so stressful...so yeah im outta here for now got other shit to do.. |
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| Rain go away... |
[Apr. 27th, 2005|11:25 pm] |
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| |  blank | ] |
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| | Rain-Breaking Benjamin | ] |
Take a photograph,
It'll be the last,
Not a dollar or a crowd could ever keep me here,
I don't have a past
I just have a chance,
Not a family or honest plea remains to say,
Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.
Is it you I want,
Or just the notion
Of a heart to wrap around so I can find my way around
Safe to say from here,
Your getting closer now,
We are never sad cause we are not allowed to be
Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.
Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.
To lie here under you,
Is all that I could ever do,
To lie here under you is all,
To lie here under you is all that i could ever do,
To lie here under you is all,
Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.
Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun,
All the world is waiting for the sun,
All the world is waiting for the sun. |
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| Sooner OR Later |
[Apr. 20th, 2005|10:37 pm] |
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| |  depressed | ] |
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| | Sooner Or Later-Breaking Benjamin | ] |
I want a normal life
just like a new born child
I am a lover hater
I am an instigater
You are an oversight
Don't try to compromise
I'll learn to love to hate it
I am not integrated
[Pre-Chorus]
Just call my name
You'll be okay
You're scream is crawling through my veins
Sooner or later your gonna hate it
Go ahead and throw your (my) (our) life away
Driving me under, leaving me out there
Go ahead and throw your (my) (our) life away
You're like an inch in time
You are open wide
You see them try to play me
Just like you see on tv
I am an oversight
Just like a parasite
Why am I so pathetic
I know you won't forget it |
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| As i watch her smile it makes this emo kid smile also |
[Apr. 4th, 2005|12:45 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  exhausted | ] |
| [ | music |
| | nothing | ] |
Today was an okay day.Brit called me and tried to wake me up but i fell asleep.I didnt wake up till about 145 and I still tired.I then got up and watched some dodgeball and played EQ2 with Joseph then decided that i need to go see dad and get him some food.I went to Mcdonalds and got him some food took it to him and hung out with him then went up to brits.She called me to ask me what i wanted to eat from sonic and i told her she knew what i wanted.She got me cheesesticks and tots lol.I dont know why but i wasnt that hungry so i basically only ate the cheesesticks so they rawked my sawks//THANKS BRIT//tHen jeff got there and we watched road trip which is a very dumb movie lol that would suck if that happened.Anywho i came home and everyone was so depending on me to go get pizzas i went down there and they had no pizzas that were like i wanted so i had to wait for them to make them what a byatch.I spent almost 45 minutes to an hour waiting on pizza.I got home and we played the game of life and then i did some of my homework and now im finishing it so thats what im working on it.Well this is a new entrie so leave a comment im out
O--|=======> lol swords are for cool kids
Josh |
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| no one can see the pain im hiding |
[Apr. 1st, 2005|07:20 pm] |
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| | depressed | ] |
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| | LiFe On StAnDby-Hawthorne Heights | ] |
Today is really a bad day i mean i know nothing is ever gonna go my way just today has totally sucked.I was late for work which wasnt good.I was off task today at work so i got yelled at and all that junk.I finally got away from work but i had asked brit if she wanted to go shopping with us but she didnt want too i guess so i didnt wanna bug about it and we still havent left yet.I came home took a shower and then nanny comes yelling at me about my insurance which she is the one that usually takes care of it and was like josh you need to take care of everything by yourself.My life sucks so much sometimes.I just wanna take a gun to my head and end it its so fucked up.Dads gettin sick again which isnt good so everything is just goin down and i dont really feel like have all the sympathy for people i mean i care that people care just i just wanna get away from the problems i hate facing them its so hard feeling like your alone..but anyways im gonna go fuck this.. |
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| I have to be strong.. |
[Mar. 30th, 2005|03:48 pm] |
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| | believe-yellowcard | ] |
Today was a good day until the news that just got to me.I found out that the brain tumor on my dads brain has grown 20% and it scares me that i could possibly lose him.I know that i dont really get to see him that much because im busy with my life but i also need to be there for him along with my life.I cant see me without him.I know that he is sick and he apologizes to me for being sick but he cannot help it.I try to be a strong person so that he cannot see that im hurting because when im hurting he is hurting ever worse.He is goin to nashville for radiation stuff next week.I hope it works for him because the last couple of years i dont see him happy like he used to be.I wish he was happy for once that things in his life would get better and he could look up instead of always being down.I cant let this get to me i have to know that he will be okay and not fall..I know he is gonna be okay my papaw told him that he would do a great job raising me and i know im not perfect but that man has done a hell of a job raising me without a wife around to help him.Well right now im shocked by the news but im hopin ill be okay..
Josh |
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| lol im bored |
[Mar. 30th, 2005|02:00 am] |
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| | avondale yellowcard | ] |
You're Avondale, the song about being betrayed.
You're most likely angry a lot of the time.
Good for you for coming to the realization that
the world isn't perfect. But instead of being
angry and holding grudges, go out and have some
fun! Forgive people and move on. Life isn't
that horrible after all, right?
Which Yellowcard song are you?
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| lol kablam byatch |
[Mar. 30th, 2005|01:51 am] |
 | You scored as Kablam!.
Kablam! | | 100% | Ren & Stimpy | | 67% | Rocko's Modern Life | | 67% | The Adventures of Pete and Pete | | 33% | Doug | | 33% | Double Dare | | 33% | Clarissa Explains It All | | 0% | Legends of the Hidden Temple | | 0% | The Secret World of Alex Mack | | 0% | Rugrats | | 0% | Are You Afraid of the Dark? | | 0% | </td>
Which Old School Nickelodeon Show Are You?
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HAHA YEAH BYATCHS KABALM WITH THE ACTION LEAGUE |
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| time to let go of not know what love it about... |
[Mar. 30th, 2005|01:37 am] |
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| | sleepy | ] |
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| | Screenwriting an Apology-Hawthorne Heights | ] |
Today was just a sorta normal day i guess you could say well away from school anyways.I woke up around 10 came downstairs and hung out and then got ready for the day and took a shower.Then i went to see dad and helped him put a new light bulb and other stuff to help him cause i know he needs it.Then i went up to brits and hung out and lol i gave her a hickey and i was just playing around but yet then again her mom doesnt know that so she is now grounded cause of me which sucks cause i was just playing around not meaning too.Anyways then i took her to the courthouse and then went home and hung out for a bit till i had to get ready for work.Went to work and today was one of those no one really is working so we are gonna be busy and i have like 10 extra things to do on my list but yet it wasnt that bad.Barbie called me while i was there and i didnt know what was goin on because i had called brit to tell her that i met jeffs ex wife and his son but yet they didnt pick up so i was sorta worried bout them.After i came out of mcds jamey came and we hung out and talked and i put the siren on my phone thing in my car on and he was like ohh shit theres a cop i was like holy shit lol funny stuff.Came home and realized that no one was really awake except joseph so me and him have just been hangin out and playing computer games and such.Call of duty is a kickass game by the way.But yup thats the summary of my day...holla back nicca lol
()___)____________) <-cigarettes are bad mamma said so
-=josh=- |
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| So cut my wrist and black my eyes...so i can fall asleep tonight or die because you kill me... |
[Mar. 28th, 2005|09:17 am] |
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| |  relaxed | ] |
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| | Ohio is for lovers-Hawthorne Heights | ] |
Well...how is everyone yesterday all i did was go to work and sleep all damn day i couldnt really get out that much.Well spring break is here but that only means i get a break from school not from work.I get one day off from break that i dont have to work but hey i need the money i guess so i cant bitch.I dunno really whats goin on with me and brit i mean she was wanted to talk to me last night about something but i went upstairs and laid down thinking since ive slept so much i wouldnt really fall asleep so i went to lay down and didnt wake back up.But this morning dad decided to call me and tell me that it was time to get up to go to school because i forgot to tell him that we are on spring break so i informed him so hopefully he remebers lol.I dont really know what all im gonna be doing this week probaly catching up on rest but i also gotta do some stuff for school for the AYES program im hoping i can get into that so that i will not be stuck at mcdonalds but i dont want to be put in knoxville.Well anyways im gonna go ahead and go walk around the house i guess
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| I can't make it on my own.. |
[Mar. 26th, 2005|02:43 am] |
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| |  hungry | ] |
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| | Prodigy-smack my bitch up | ] |
Yesterday was really a fun day.I mean I woke up around 6 and went into work around 630ish and then after work i came home and tried to do some stuff to my car i have to take it today over to that guys shop and he is gonna see if he can fix it or what.I hope he can fix it i miss it lol.I hate driving the 4 runner i mean im glad i have a car to drive just i dont like it but it gets me from point a and to b so im pretty happy.I went up brits after work and sorta did a little suprise im here sorta thing and she was cleaning her room.So i tried to let her finish while i sat in the computer room just talking with tammy and then started playing around with the guitar.Then Jeff came up and we all went to sonic.I thought i saw tiff and i said something which made brit think that im still wanting tiff but i know i dont.We went back to the house and ate then me and her went and watched reba and hung out but not for long cause i had to be home early so i could wake up at 5 in the morning lol..so there you have it..im out gotta go to work
JOsh |
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| I just cant look its..killing me |
[Mar. 23rd, 2005|09:21 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  anxious | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Almost-Bowling For Soup | ] |
Well hello,
How is everyone today...my day went pretty damn good.I went to bed pretty early last night so i woke up around 6 this morning and took a shower which is amazing for me to be up that early.Then i showed my sister this dvd that we made in interactive media class last 9 weeks and her and Ryan laughed there ass off.I then went to school and thought i was gonna be there too late to talk to brit but yet she hadnt even got there yet SLACKER.She finally came and me and her went down to go talk to tres and barbie and as usual barbie was beating the crap outta tres lol.I then walked brit up in the classroom and gave her a hug then went to class.We have been reading alot of Edgar Allen Poe lately here and he is a quite interesting person if you read some of his material.I didnt really talk to brit before second i always talk to alisha and see how she has been and how darren is.After math i went to talk to tres and barbie and they were all huggy and so i waited on brit and then went and got some lunch and sat with the kids to eat and all that junk went and got those tickets for the prom fashion show.Its gonna get crunk up in the Ac lol.yeah anyways today in mechanics i really didnt do that much i helped drain this really big blue thing and carry some parts out then i got bored and sat in the classroom talkin to some friends and debating on whether ford or chevy is better so therefore that was a waste of time cause rockwood(Ethan) was rambling with the mustang kids and it was just useless lol ..then i went to work at mcdonalds and it wasnt that bad but some people bitch way too much at work but yeah..im outtie here.. |
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| Ive waited all my life.. |
[Mar. 21st, 2005|03:42 pm] |
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| | happy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | True-Ryan Cabrera | ] |
Today was a okay day.I wasnt feeling that great when i woke up but other than that today really wasnt that bad i mean brit is sick so she wasnt at school so i didnt really get to hang out with her.I left at lunch and came home hung around here then i watched my yellowcard dvd and ate some pineapples lol.I played some counterstrike and call of duty got bored with that so now im just sittin here listenin to some music.This week is gonna be after today only 3 days because of good friday..i dont really know what im gonna do on spring break but im gonna hang out with brit more than likely i hung out with her all weekend and it was funny lol.I did hit my head on the light and it hurt but im okay.I need to go get my freakin haircut but i dont think i have the energy to go get out today unless brit wanted to hang out lol but she is sick and sittin at the house in ghettoville lol.**Menstruals attract bears** lol im outta here
Josh..tell me again |
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| Hey There.. |
[Mar. 20th, 2005|10:07 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  loved | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Life on Standby=Hawthorne Heights | ] |
Whats up kids?
Not much here today was pretty tiring on my part i had to wake up pretty early to go to work so i went to work and it wasnt that bad of a day i mean it was a regular hell sunday.After i got home from work i hung out with my uncle around here then went up to dads to see him and he wasnt there.I left him a note and then went up to brits and hung out up there.bRit wasnt feeling so great but it was nice to hang out with her.I went up there everyday this weekend so thats awesome she is awesome lol.Last night we watched anchorman which is a pretty funny movie.DId you know that menstruals attract bears lol.Ohh and last night since im so tall and i was turning around to walk i didnt see the light and i nailed my forehead on it and like fell i didnt know what was goin on but yet i got up and we both laughed.I love spendin time with her i can be myself around her she likes me for who i am.Her mom is a really cool kid too lol tonight i played twinkle twinkle ghetto star for her lol and she was loving it..i hate mcdonalds...well anywho im gonna go spend the rest of my time on this day with the phrish holla lol
oVer n Out
Josh |
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| Just ask the question..come untie the knot..say you wont care |
[Mar. 19th, 2005|03:30 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | silly | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Yellowcard-Believe | ] |
Here lately things have been gettin better for me I think.Some things are confusing to me and I just dont know what to do there..Me and Brit have been gettin pretty close here lately and I love spending time with her.I know she doesnt want smiley anymore its just that what if.I mean Brit is one of the few people that i can trust and i know she wouldnt do that to me.Last night i went up to her house and hung out with her and her mom which was awesome i had alot of fun.We ate pizza and talked then me and brit watched dodgeball..that movie is very funny..Smiley has hurt brit so much i dont see why he is coming back when all he is gonna do is stur up problems i mean him and cassi are meant for each other it seems like because when they break up they each say they arent gonna date each other and what happens? they are all lovey dovey the next day so that solves the question in my head that i have nothing to worry about.Well im gonna go take a shower mcdonalds freakin sucks |
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| Pinch me and DIE |
[Mar. 17th, 2005|06:29 pm] |
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| | content | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Smile like you mean it- the killers | ] |
Hello everyone
Today is st pattys day which means if you dont wear green you get pinched.If someone were to pinch me i would do the whole not pinch back i would punch back.Anywho i havent really done anything this week. Yesterday I went to West Side Honda and did a job shadowing so i really like it there.The people there are really nice and i think that would be a better place for me to work instead of mcdonalds..Today was really boring 2 of my teachers are gonna be out tommorrow so im not gonna go maybe i dunno depends if i am feeling any better. Well this is all for now
Happy st pattys day |
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